There's this blog I like to read, not because I know the person, but because I love her story. A few months ago she gave birth to a baby with down syndrome. She didn't know until her actual birth that her daughter would have down syndrome. Her blog is about her experience and how she's learning to move on when something unexpected and sad happens. Her blog is amazing, she is an amazing person, and she takes beautiful pictures. Click here to read it.......and don't forget to read the story of her daughter's birth.
Just recently, she was asked to photograph a wedding. After she was done and when she was in the car she said she cried. The bride made her think of her oldest daughter. This bride was so happy and at this happy time this bride had a little sister right beside her.
She cried for what she thought she would of had, she cried for her daughters, she cried because she wanted her new little baby to have this happiness, and she cried because even though it's been months since her baby's birth, sadness is still there sometimes.
"It's not always sunny. It's not always bright. And no, it's not always perfect. There is a time for rain.......moments where the bright clarity of sunshine is rinsed with the precipitation that comes now and then to drench the parched grounds and makes them grow again."
I cried last night. I cried the night before last too. It felt good. It felt good to admit that I am sad, that life is not easy, it's not always sunny, it's not always bright, and it's not always perfect.
I cried for what I thought I would have, for what I don't, and for what I miss. I cried because I have to go through trials....especially this one. I cried because I miss my mom and it's so not fair that I have to go through this without her.
It felt good to "Let it fall like rain and rinse the sunshine out but for a moment because growth always follows a good rain."
5 comments:
Love that quote! I am so glad that you are learning a growing and sharing your experience with us! Wish I could give you lots of warm hugs during those time of lots "rain". Love you!
Keely, i am SO sorry this happened to you. i am bawling my eyes out right now and can hardly see these words but i just want you to know that i care and am praying for you and your family. i know there are more special little spirits waiting to come to your family. you are awesome. thank you for letting us into your life.....good times and hard.
Keely, I've been so grateful for your recent posts. You are amazing and inspiring. You might not think you have a way with words, but you do, and your spirit shines through so strong! I am constantly finding myself deeply touched by what you share. Thank you for letting us feel your grief as well as your joys.
P.S. That birth story was so moving. Thanks for passing it on. I hope you don't mind if I, too, reference it on my blog. :)
You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for...we have to experience the pain and sadness, but fortunately we have a lot of joy and happiness to lean upon. I think you have had an amazing attitude and outlook throughout this trial, and you are an inspiration to me and lots of other people, as well!
Thanks for sharing this, Keely. I struggled with unexpected tears so many times last week. I wish we could sit down together and talk. I am so grateful for your strong testimony and for all that you've shared. Sometimes we have to give ourselves permission to grieve. I am working on that right now too.
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